nayela: (by birdyjae)
I went a little bit overboard while I was in town today. I came home with no fewer than seven different things that will make me or my house or my bathwater smell amazing. Some of them I can combine; others are best on their own. I'd blame this on playing a character possessed of hyperactive, constantly-hungry senses, but as all of her sensory tics and obsessions are just mine ramped up to 11, that's not an excuse that'll hold water. :D

I can now, if I so choose, smell of rosemary, citrus and spices; of smoky sandalwood and honey, or of cherry blossom for a very different mood. Some of these scents will be claimed by characters, some will be just for me. And when I put them on they'll remind me of nights under the stars, of being beside myself with drama, of being hopeful or flirtatious or gleefully horrid, with all the pleasant distraction and encouragement those memories bring.

The other day I was thinking of mine and [ profile] lordofthewheel's wedding, and Shenanigans, and all the other brilliant parties I've been to in recent years, and it struck me how different my life is now from how it was ten years ago - five years ago, even. Look at us now - all us kids who had no friends at school, all us teenagers who felt they'd got lost on the wrong planet, us twentysomethings who threw no birthday parties because we knew nobody would show up, us lonely students who lived vicariously through the internet wondering when our lives would start, or if we'd ever find love, or if we were irredeemably broken - look at us now. We're building tribes, making friends, losing friends, picking each other up, breaking hearts, raising families, weaving relationships in new shapes that suit us, and maybe we won't die alone, after all. We've turned out all right. We're going to be okay.
nayela: (by birdyjae)
I'm on half days at the moment, due to there being buggerall to do at work. They did train me on a filler project, but just looking at the spreadsheet was enough to set off the 'ohgods what am I doing with my life' chorus in my head. So, less money but more afternoons. I think I'm still winning this one.

Until work picks up again, there's a ton of stuff I've been meaning to do but putting off indefinitely. Behold my mighty to do list! Posted for accountability, and stuff.

This week:

  • Ring plumber and get bathroom tap sorted

  • Look into Ecotricity

  • (Addendum: sort out horribly sloppy record keeping. Argh.)

  • Ring up AA to book Pass Plus

  • Order more storage for war room

  • Book an eye check

  • Cook and freeze a batch of veggie soup

  • Cook and freeze a batch of bolognaise

  • Clean kitchen

  • Clean study

  • Clean bedroom

  • Figure out how to crochet skulls:

Within the next two weeks:

  • Switch energy suppliers

  • Get new glasses

  • Assemble new shelving

  • Unfuck the pile of stuff currently living on the war room sofa

  • Get Pete to unfuck the towering pile of armour and scraps in the corner

  • Get some varnish for the gazebo

  • Sand and paint the thing before it succumbs to rot - finally finished halfway through March

  • Actually get in the car and drive on a regular basis - scuppered by flat battery. Did have my first Pass Plus lesson, though.

Before going back to full time in April:

  • Decide on where to go for our honeymoon, and book it

  • Get at least partway through Pass Plus

  • Zap car back to life like a mad scientist

  • Go for a drive to charge up the battery

  • Make new dress for Animatium

  • Overthrow the Patriarchy

  • Build volcano lair

  • Take over humanity's collective subconscious via the medium of owl memes

Sounds doable, right?
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For most of my life, I've self-identified as an introvert. You know that handy rule of thumb that goes along the lines of 'Extroverts thrive on being around people; introverts need time alone to recharge'? I've always liked that one. It doesn't make any claims about people's actual enjoyment (or lack thereof) of social situations, or any judgements about their ability to handle human interaction. And the latter part fits me to a tee - I love my friends, but sometimes I just want to curl up alone and chill out by myself.

That feeling of 'I need a break from people' was almost constantly present during my teenage years, where I regarded other human beings largely as a threat. Those weren't good years. It took me ages to realize that being around my peer group was not necessarily a draining experience, that I could be part of a social circle without constantly watching my back. (Learning how not to alienate said social circle was a whole different can of worms...)

Fast forward to now. I still take breaks from being social when I need to - during family gatherings, games evenings, what have you. Being able to do this (because people are lovely and understand) is immensely helpful. But, the paradoxical thing is, my default method of doing so these days is hanging out on the internet and talking to more people online.

Somewhere in the past few years I've gone from being completely content all by myself to actively craving company. It's gone to the point that I'll voluntarily spend an extra night in a wet, muddy, literally freezing field just to party with my friends. And after whingeing for weeks about wanting a weekend off from traveling/doing stuff/having guests, I suddenly want nothing more than to trek out to Oxford and see if the usual suspects are up for pubbage. I think I'm losing my 'shy and retiring wallflower' cred here.

So, introvert or just poorly socialised? I'm not entirely sure anymore.


Jan. 25th, 2010 08:13 pm
nayela: (Default)
It's been a blah day and I could really do with cheering up, so here's a fluffy meme. Stolen from... well, it's all over my friends list really. :)

Comment here, and I'll give you one reason why I like you. Repost and spread the love. Or don't repost and spread the love however you feel.
nayela: (Default)
Taking a break from last minute pre-deadline madness to squee incoherently and grin in a possibly deranged fashion because this page here:

 makes me incredibly happy in oh so many ways.

That is all.

(Deadline is the 14th. Expect no sense from me before then.)

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I stayed up for about 30 hours straight yesterday. Again. My body seems to get confused about time zones, and my bedtime sneaks ever closer to dawn, and I find myself waking up around three in the afternoon. The drawback of being done with classes: the thesis deadline is too far away to get me out of bed.

( <--Yep, this is me.)

So from Wednesday to Thursday, I skipped sleep entirely. Crashed at 9 pm or so, slept through the night for a change, and was awake by eight. The results are rather startling. So far I've got more reading done today than in the last four days together, walked for an hour, shopped for some small necessities, and cleaned my entire flat. (The bathroom is technically Steffi's job, but a) she's not here right now and b) I felt one could only get dirtier in there the way it was...) What with all this domesticity, I should go out tonight and make up for it--if only that wouldn't switch me back to nocturnal in no time flat. It's disconcerting how much more productive I am when I put mornings at the right end of the day.

Also, it's the equinox today. Happy spring/autumn, depending on where you are. :)

Edit: my new desktop picture.
Hungry? Don't click. )

nayela: (Default)
Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

[ profile] bardling gave me: [ profile] lordofthewheel , yurt, likes-it-warm, games, travel. She also wanted to know about the name 'Nayela', so she gets that too because curiosity is a good thing. :)

Lordofthewheel, aka Pete )

Likes-it-warm )

Games )

Travel )

A Katie by any other name... )


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